hmm, slightly happier from just now.
but still not happy.
i brought down my iphone for servicing, they didnt bother. simply replaced. i think i forgot to backup, but stuff in there dont matter as much now. including the few new handphone numbers i got this year. either they're important to me, and i memorised them by heart, or they are insignificant and i should allow them to go.
recently read an article: technology is making it harder for us to forget. perhaps it is. looked back at some things that day which reminded me about the past. i really dont know. these few days have not been the ideal kind of before-enlistment days. not exactly blissful nor ecstatic. more of lost. some people i thought were really important in my life... that turned out to be disappointing. some people who were once important... maybe are no longer now.
i'm tired. im sleeping. im leaving. and i dont want to take anything with me.
goodnight. and goodbye.
12/08/2009 11:28:00 PM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
2am. Good thing I didn't follow them out or I'd still be outside, tired, hungry and cold. Maybe not cold, ya but sorry, I can't lend my coat.
Not exactly exuberant after prom. Don't know why.
Feel quite empty now. Perhaps it's cos I didn't fight for what I wanted myself. Though I got tt photo in the eNd but it also wasn't me asking, so cannot feel that sense of accomplishment.
Feel quite weak now. Perhaps it's cos of the distance between us. But again I should never have asked for too much.
Feel quite tired now. Been awake for 18 hours with constant practising, walking and waltzing. I want my sleep.
Feel somewhat depressed now. The day is coming far faster than I expected. Hmm preparing to bid farewell.
Feel quite numb now. Feeling, yet no longer feeling much...
Goodnight.
12/08/2009 02:11:00 AM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
whee ytd went to practise like 8 hrs woah.
i think im the longest survivor at zhenyang's house... the other ppl who went with me in the afternoon session (corina, jl, pyq) all left after dinner which i enjoyed so much. hmm thanks pyq for being my dance partner for a while hahaha. then played some card game... hmm many ppl think im lousy at it but im actually not lor. just you wait. if i get to play again, i'll show you.
wasnt able to go online after i reached home, drained like dunno what... yep quite tired all the time. sigh actually... i have sth to say but perhaps it wont be tt ideal an answer... as always. don't know how to conclude that essay but i have no wish to start on another chapter... perhaps i should close the book soon.
going to have a rehearsal later. whee today is the day i qi dai for damn long alr. can take picture with some ppl. yeaaa. and dance. and the best part is... dinner! they better not make me play games until i don't get to eat my dinner. that'd be quite terrible.
setting off to city hall soon... don't want to go too early, otherwise too bored. don't want to go too late, lest... idk. whee today is the day we've been waiting for.
i'll treasure this moment
till we meet again...
hmm forget it... im randomly copying lyrics. should stop this habit.
12/07/2009 11:19:00 AM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
almost like a time machine.
awakening my memories.
yet i do not wish to return;
is this truly the conclusion...
12/06/2009 12:58:00 AM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
sts today. felt like spending some time alone.
first went to marina square. sigh ended up eating some lousy lunch. i'd so rather have paid more and eaten some toriQ, subway or yoshinoya. hoped not to eat fried food but ended up eating that in the food court. some food that was at most mediocre. then the guy's attitude was quite bad. so sian.
realised marina square doesnt hold much for me. though i've been there time and again. so many ppl who go with me start telling me they're bored of it and all. but i seem to still like tt place. not the entertainment lane. i dont know what i like either. perhaps the functioning air-conditioner. perhaps the design. ...perhaps the past.
ate raspberry mcdonalds ice-cream for the first time. the next time im gonna try green apple. i think. i've only seen the marina square and tiong bahru plaza mcdonalds ice cream kiosk got these coloured flavoured ice creams. hmm quite... novel. i like.
went to bugis to look around, and went tbp soon after. not a very fruitful trip... wanted to buy sony ericsson G700 battery but they sell it at $58. ridiculous.
hmm good day of solitude, though a few ppl kept staying on my mind throughout the trip, so it wasnt really solitude. then plus all the crowded shopping centres and all... could make a better choice of where to go for savouring solitude.
came home and slept till 7... hmm wont be enjoying much of this in time to come.
but i'm so bored at home. hmm.
remember someone told me that when you have less of something, you'll tend to treasure it more.
yet im wasting moments of my life on random stuff... dont really feel that im living each moment to the fullest. wonder how to get that feeling. maybe dec 3 was quite fun, but since then, there hasnt been anything or anyone that has been able to make me particularly happy. maybe i was expecting too much. that when you had little time left, then the world would try to make you happy. everyone would compromise and try to agree to your requests as long as they're not absurd. hmm overexpectation. but nvm, its just 5 months of sian stuff, so its not tt bad.
should go sleep now... ah. the bed.
12/05/2009 11:47:00 PM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
who actually puts their hand through the window grating while holding a camera 11 floors above ground level? me.what a beautiful sky, and this is one of the better photographs i've taken of the sky. no noise, not pixelated, and the scene is simply scenic. i think so at least. k this could be my next blog picture.
sunset is so beautiful. and wish you were here; to watch it with me too.
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Dec 3. some guy's bday. haha a bit like last year's thing. last year celebrated on the 2nd or sth... this yr on the day itself.
after shopping a bit at ion went to takashimaya yoshinoya and met up with the rest. long time never eat yoshinoya alr cos its too overpriced... but theres not much of a choice there anw. hmm ok la had quite a lot of fun... but i still needa buy sth.
hmm now it's 4th. i count exactly a week. wah sian diao la. wish i had a lot more time. ok maybe not. think maybe it's glad that sth on my mind for so long will finally be done and over with.
whee, time to sleep!
12/03/2009 11:54:00 PM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
sigh, saw them leave ytd.
sending ppl off at the airport.
like that then gone for almost a week already. sigh.
last night i signed on to msn. so empty.
so many people that i'm hoping would be online aren't. i want to talk to you. aiya but forget it, i'd sooner or later have to deal with this anyway.
i'm bored.
haha really. don't even know what to type here.
missing my classmates alr. even though it's just the first day. hope i can survive through the week.
hmm... shd go out again. i love going out.
12/02/2009 01:03:00 PM
Platinumwinter
the twilight sky's brightening;
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